Thursday, 9 August 2007

Tough Day

Today hasn't been a very good day. I don't know why but I've been feeling extra sad today and really missing Banjo and feeling angry at the universe for taking him away.

Even though it seems like a stupid thing to do when I've already been in a funk all day - I just cleaned up the nursery and organised all Banjo's cards and memorabilia and it sort of made me feel better. It reminded me of all of the fantastic family and friends we have and how supportive you've all been and how lucky we really are.

It also made me start thinking about all the awesome things Banjo and I did while he was inside me. Special memories of the 6 months I spent carrying him around. I'm so grateful that he shared mine and Robbie's wedding day and came on our cruise around New Zealand. Banjo and I totally rocked out with Jess at the Pink concert (down the front in the mosh pit!!) When I was looking after Declan he would ask me if the baby was in my tummy and when I said yes he would pull up my shirt and then his shirt and put his naked tummy on mine for a cuddle. It was really special and beautiful.

I miss Banjo every minute of every day but some days are just harder than others.

1 comment:

  1. Dear Kirsty and Rob,
    There are no words we can say that can take away your sadness. However we are always here for you
    and give you our love, support and understanding.

    Stay strong and remain positive.

    We love you both so much.

    Mum and Dad Beggs


Hi thanks for sharing your thoughts with me. It is nice to know someone is listening.


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