I never realised I was striving for perfection until I gave it some serious thought. Thinking is what I've been doing a lot of lately. I've been thinking about what I need to do to achieve my goals. I've always focused on diet but I'm realising diet is not the answer. It goes so much deeper. I have been everything from too skinny to too fat and I've never been satisfied. It's only in hindsight I can really accept that I was thin and beautiful. I always felt not good enough.
I have been hiding behind perfection. If I am the perfect mother, the perfect hostess, the perfect housewife, the perfect friend then it won't matter that I'm fat. The thing is it doesn't matter - not to anyone else - they love me anyway. I'm just not sure if I love me.
I don't know how to fix it, I don't have it all figured out but the thinking stage is good - really good. No-one can do it for me. No-one has the answers except me - I just have to find them.
I think I have the same problem. I found your blog through Mama's Little Nestwork and can't wait to read more. I'm your newest follower.
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Hi there!! I am your newest follower! I found you on the Monday Linky! I love finding new blogs and yours is lovely:) You can find me at www.bouffeebambini.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteYes, the thinking process is good. It sounds like you're ready for the book that nearly changed my life! Women, Food, and God. check it out!
ReplyDeleteNice post. I think we are twins. :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Blogtoberfest! I am on a mission to comment and follow all the blogs in Blogtoberfest! Maybe you could comment and follow me as well! Cheers!